Monday, July 26, 2010




He kissed her head

And quietly he said

It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me
She said, how beautiful do I have to be?
When I look in the mirror, you're the only thing I see
And I have loved you beautifully
-Beautifully by Jay Brannan

Thursday, July 22, 2010

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Writing this post scares me. Mostly because it has a sense of finality about it.

Last week I went as a sponsor with our youth group to Falls Creek.

For those of you who don't know what Falls Creek is, let me explain. Falls Creek is a baptist youth camp in Davis, OK. It holds about 7,000 youth every week for 7 weeks during the summer. One of the biggest camps in the country. It is a blessed place. A place where God does big things, he changes hearts, and calls many to his arms.

Falls Creek holds an extra special place in my heart. It has a piece of my heart. I have gone to Falls Creek twice a summer every summer since I was in the 7th grade. During those weeks God whispered softly, spoke powerfully, changed everything, and drew me back to him time and time again. You get a certain spiritual high when you are there, for some it fades, for some it is so deep in your soul you could never shake it out. I think I'm the latter.

During those years I:
- felt called to ministry
- saw my peers come to Christ
- became best friends with a girl named Kellory (who I still love dearly).
- had many crushes
- felt the presence of God some of the strongest I ever have.

If that wasn't enough to win a piece of my heart, 2 summers ago I worked there. I was blessed to be a part of a team that became family. It was the best summer of my life. During those 3 months I:
-learned what discipleship truly is
- got a taste of love
- made life long friends
- sizzled and star gazed
- became a member of Cruise Club (cruise fo life!)
- grew in my faith leaps and bounds
- was stretched WAY out of my comfort zone
- became passionate about missions
- walked with a dear friend through dark and heartbreaking times
- opened up parts of me I had never let others see before
- had my heart broken
- learned about unexplainable peace
.....
I could go ON and ON. I don't think I can put into words how dear this place is to me, how much of my heart it has and will always have.

Since I am moving to Nashville in about 2 weeks this last week was quite possibly the last time I would go to Falls Creek. My heart broke, it ached as soon as we pulled up. That first night as I looked around during the evening service at the 7,000+ students and adults gathered together worshiping our Savior together I lost it. I couldn't help it, it was beautiful. Oh how I will miss those evenings.

All week my heart felt heavy. I knew that it was time to move on, not to forget, but to let go. So that's what I did. I cried several more times and on Saturday I said goodbye to this place that had become like home to me.

Thank you Lord for allowing me to be a part of something like that. Thank you.

All the Poor and Powerless

These guys are from a church in Nashville. The guy, David plays keys for Needtobreathe and I got to get to know him a little bit when they came to JBU. This is part of their new project Sons and Daughters. You can download this song for free. Do it! They are wonderful and this song is beautiful.


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Sometimes a song is just sexy.


Friday, July 9, 2010


One day,
I would like a man in a fedora who sometimes wears glasses who will:
sit on my front porch
read the paper
drink coffee
kiss me on the forehead
and call me sugar (not all the time, just on perfect days like that one)


Thursday, July 8, 2010




Every day I am taking steps to leave my insecurity behind. It's not easy, and it's not happening overnight, but it's happening. I'm determined. I'm healing, forgiving, letting go, learning, knowing, getting my dignity back.


When we allow God's truth to eclipse every false positive and let our eyes springs open to the treasure we have, there in His glorious reflection we'll also see the treasure we are. And the beauty of the Lord will be upon us. (So Long Insecurity pg 43)


She is clothed with strength and dignity- Proverbs 31:25



Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Words just aren't coming
There are lots of thoughts...
lots of things being learned
and healed
and let go of

but no words yet



Friday, July 2, 2010

First of July



I meant to post this yesterday, seeing as that was the First of July. But I didn't, so I am posting it now and the song is still just as good :)
Enjoy

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