Merry Christmas

Don't get me wrong I love my family to death..and I love being with them soooo sooo much

but..

I miss my friends...Rachel, Adam, Taylor, Heather, Kristin, Lisa, Jenna, Stephanie, Jill, Andrew, Nate, Aaron, Grace...love you guys..miss you lots..Merry Christmas

Foot Loose and Worry Free

My day today and Andrew Brown's latest blog inspired this blog...

I worry about things in my future WAY too much. As soon as there is a possibility of something good happening to me in the future I automatically think of all the reasons and ways it won't happen to me. I sit around and worry about it and think and think of worst case scenarios or think things that aren't really going on, are( don't know if that made total sense). I say I am going to trust God and I totally don't or don't want to wait on his timing. My friend Rachel told me today, "God's timing is SOOOOO much better than our timing, lets just seek his will" that is exactly what I needed to hear today. I can't say that I won't do this ever again. But with these specific things that are going on in my life right now I am definitely going to try to not let them consume my thoughts or control my happiness. I am blessed beyond words in so many ways, I need to focus on those things and let God handle whats ahead.

Movies I wan to see

1. Atonement- now
2. Juno- now
3. P.S. I love you- Dec. 21
4.Sweeney Todd- soon
5. National Treasure Dec 21
6.Lars and the Real Girl
7.27 Dresses- Jan 11
8. Be Kind Rewind Jan 25
9. Fools Gold- Feb 8, 2008
10. Vantage Point- Feb. 15, 2008
11. Semi- Pro-Feb 29, 2008
12. Chronicles of Narnia 2 -May 16, 2008
13. The Dark Knight- July 18, 2008

No Motivation

Right now I should be packing to go home tomorrow, for some reason I am totally unmotivated. I don't why, I am really excited about going home. I just don't want to do anything but sit at my computer and listen to music, or go hang out with my friends. I have SO much to do in my room, like pack, clean my room and then pack my car. That may not sound like a lot but you can't see my room, and you don't know how much I need to pack. So here I am wasting more time writing a blog about how unmotivated I am...Hmmmmm

Just a few pictures

Me, Jenna and Aaron before Candlelight

Roommates at Shogun's

At The Square in Fayetteville



I just wanted to put some pictures up...these are from the candlelight service and the celebration of my birthday...I have good friends...

Tough thoughts

If you were single for the rest of your life, would you be content in just the relationship with God?

Yikes!!! Did I just go there??? Well, I understand that this is a pretty difficult question to swallow, much less answer. I haven't honestly answered it yet. I mean, up front I would say, "Ohhh yeah...Of COURSE I would be...I mean, why wouldn't I..." but then when it settles in a little and I think about it, it is kind of sucky to think about. I don't want to be single for the rest of my life. That just blows!!! We are supposed to have a partner to go through this crazy journey with. Even though Adam had everything he could ever want, it wasn't enough until he had the "suitable partner" (Eve). But I wonder what it looks like to be so in tuned with God that He is enough. I would like to think that we could be so in tuned with God that we feel like we don't need anything or anyone else, until God's like, "Uh...bro/lady...I am everything and everyone you will ever need, but it isn't my best. My best also includes..." BAM!! God throws His BEST for you in front of your path and you are like, "THANK YOU JESUS! HOLY CRAP THIS IS GOOD!"
I would love to personally be in that place where I was so in tuned with God that I feel completely secure in His greatness, His glory, His truth, His promises...and I would love that for you as well.

Just something I have been thinking about a lot lately

Thoughts?

Been Awhile

I know its been awhile since I have blogged but my computer was being dumb and wouldn't let me get on the internet and now its fixed!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!!! So this is going to be a round-up blog(yes that's journalism talk)

I have officially written my LAST article for the Advocate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And as you can see, I am pretty excited about that!!

Tau'mee's wedding was absolutely beautiful and perfect.

I only have one more week of school left, and it's final's week! ah! but It won't be bad, I only have to take one test, so thats really nice!! I CANNOT wait until Christmas break! I am super excited to see my brother, then ALL my family in New Mexico, its just going to be great!! ALSO I will have a niece when I come to school!! Holy Cow I'm excited!!!!

I saw August Rush..LOVE IT!!!!!!! The Dad is the man I want to marry..wow..thats all. When we went to see it, it was a Tuesday night is Siloam Springs so we were the only ones in the theater..fun..

Wednesday night I played in a Three on Three basketball tournament at school and my team got second place!!! Not too shabby for me not playing in really over a year!! It was so much fun and made me realize how much I miss it, it also made me very very sore!!! I can barely walk today.

That's all I can think of that has happened since my last post...So here are some pics of past events!!

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y Night!!

So tonight was the "Light Up Siloam" Christmas parade!! It was a lot of fun.

The night started off with going to dinner with Jenna and Aaron at La Huerta's(mmmm)
Then we drove to the parade( where it actually wasn't freezing this year!!)
We met up with my favorite people (jill, stephanie, lisa, kristin, and nate) and watched the fun parade. We even got candy!!
Then me and jill and stephanie and lisa went to this Chili Party where there was like 7 different kinds of chili and you had to vote for your favorite one(hey it was free and good!!) there were so many people there is was insane, but fun i really enjoyed it.
We then went to go get some ice cream at Braums and left to hang out in Stephanie's room
Talked for awhile
Watched Cellular
And now I'm going to crash

I would say its been a great Saturday night. And tomorrow I am going to one of my good friend's wedding's . Weird, I don't feel like I'm old enough to have my friends getting married!! AHHH!!

Can't Wait

This blog will only make sense to those who know me well and know what I just did.

Let's just say I can't wait to see what God REALLY has for me..it's going to be good

10

ten things you might not know about me

10.I absolutely love to be spontaneous( sometimes I just can't be and it makes me sad)
9. I wish I could sing well more than anything in the world
8. I want to be confident but in reality I am just a scared little girl that second guesses herself all the time.
7. I don't read the bible as much as I should or I would like to
6. I really really really really miss having close guy friends, and want them again more and more everyday.
5. I write letters to my future husband. It may sound cheesy but I think it will be really cool and probably pretty funny when I get to give them to him.
4. I love it when people smile at me from across the room.
3.I am the champion at speed and Rat King
2. I miss being called Rae
1. Sometimes I actually enjoy writing articles..but more times than not I hate it

Blog Drought

So..I have really been wanting to blog all kinds of things but my life has been pretty crazy lately. And it doesn't show signs of slowing down soon. With the end of the semester only 3 weeks away, i'm stressed out..a lot. So, if i find myself with a spare moment here and there I will blog for sure!! But it may be a little less than normal!! Love you all!!

His voice melts me

Michael Buble - Everything

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I don't know exactly why i love this video so much, but i do. His voice in amazing, and his smile is cute too lol..enjoy!!!!

6 Days

Till i get to go home for Thanksgiving. And it cannot come soon enough!

Mutemath and Eisley= amazing

This weekend I went to a Mutemath/Eisley concert in Tulsa. Lets just say this was the best concert I have ever been to hands down. Eisley, though not "entertaining" kept my attention the whole time and their harmonies and music left me completely satisfied..soooo good!!!!! Then came Mutemath. WOW..thats all I can say really. They were absolutely phenomenal. They sounded better live than on their CD and they put on an awesome show. The drummer..I am in love with him..He was ridiculous. He tapes his headphones to his head so they don't fly off because he goes crazy! I have never watched a drummer so much in my life, I had to make myself look at the lead singer every now and then. So anyway I plan on seeing Mutemath every chance I get. I also got to hang out with some really fun people that night. Old and new friends. Overall it was an amazing night!!




Lisa, Jenna, and me waiting for dinner


Eisley

The gang

Mutemath!!

Darren King..love

This made my day

I found this video on my friend Kellory's Myspace page and I have to say it made my day completely!!! I don't know how many other people will enjoy and appreciate it like I do, but I pray you're one that does. So enjoy this random bit of amazingness

Chubby Lloyt

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Register

This morning we registered for next semesters classes, I got all the ones I wanted and I'm pretty excited about most of them except Western Civ and Practicum. I am going to be taking 17 hours..thats the most I've ever done. I'm pretty nervous about it. I hope I can do it..here is my schedule

MWF 10-10:50 Western Civ I (blah!)
MWF 11-11:50 Photography(whoo)
TT 9-10:15 Graphic Design (ahh!!)
TT 2:45-4 Masterpieces of Film (fun!!!)
W 6:30-9 Public Relations Planning (no Warner!)
Everyday of my life- hell...opps I mean practicum(writing for the newspaper)

Halloween!!!

For Halloween my school puts on a costume concert, its so much fun!! We usually do it on the 30th so we don't conflict with other peoples Halloween parties and more people will come. For the concert I dressed up like Tom Cruise from Risky Business!! Then tonight me and my friends dressed up and went out to dinner, this time I was Twiggy! Again..a lot of fun! anyway here are some pics of the events!




The Stage

HAHAHA!! They were from the Will Ferrell act..so funny

Austin Powers and Robert Goule





Me and my roomie!

Risky!!


Twiggy, Audrey, a Go Go Girl and Sexy Lisa!

Chosen

I choose JOY!

I choose joy in the situation with the newspaper and Mr. Warner. He is not worth my tears or stress. I will not let him decide my self worth. He is one man with one opinion, what he says in not necessarily what is true. I am not doing anything for him, I choose to do it all for Christ. I will honor him with my work, for He is the only one who truly deserves my full devotion, and that means in every aspect of my life. So from now on, I choose to look at the Advocate with joy and an opportunity to serve my king.

Discouraged

No matter how hard I try on the newspaper everything i do backfires and ends up being wrong or not good enough. The one time I thought I really did well on an article i ended up being given the wrong information and got in trouble. I'm so freaking sick of it. I can't win...

Don't End in Flames

Dear California,

I love you very much and miss you everyday
Please don't burn down =(
I don't think my heart could take it
Hope to see you soon!!

Yours Forever,
Keisha

relationships

everyone is in them..all of a sudden..weird

Hey Jude

Thank you for being so enjoyable. You thoroughly entertained me and made my day. Your trippy scenes both filled me with joy and confusion. Your music filled me with nothing but joy. Although you are not a movie most would enjoy, you were exactly what I wanted you to be. So thank you If your goal was to make me completely fall in love with Jude, you succeeded. The wedding date is set for next May.

Free Falling

Fall is officially here. Last night on my way to Fayetteville I had to turn on the heat, it was on real low and not all the way on hot but it was still on! Today, I wore a long sleeved shirt for the first time. Sure when it hit mid afternoon I had to take it off because it got a tad bit hot, but I still wore it most of the day!!!! Leaves were all over my car and the ground crunches when I walk. I want to go pick a pumpkin, make apple cider, and wear a scarf..maybe a little soon for all of these but Fall is definitely coming fast.

These people i love...

Insamniac

Its 2 in the morning...I can't sleep..So I am watching Gilmore Girls and eating cold chicken noodle soup...

Proud to be an American (or Dallas Cowboys fan!)

Tonight I was so proud to call myself a Cowboys fan!! They pulled off an amazing win! After 5 interceptions, they still come back and win it with a 52 yard field goal..that they made TWICE! Such studs!!! Thank you Jenna for letting me watch that amazing performance of athleticism! Made my night!! Well now i can sleep and dream well!!

Well done Cowboys, Well done!!!

Lack of interest

I feel like I have a blog audience of 1

makes me sad

but i shall blog on

I'm Going Home

Tomorrow I am going home..for the first time in a long time. I am ready. I miss home. I miss my big room, and my dog, and home cooked meals, and my parents, and five dollar movies. I am just really excited about being home for 2 days.

This fall break has been wonderful....




But im exhausted!

day one

Last night we sat around a mini camp fire and had smores and started just asking each other questions and it turned into a "define" people game. Questions like, if (insert name here) were a car, what kind of care would they be, or what kind of animal, or type of music etc. How it worked is that everyone had to decide what they thought that person would be. It was really fun, and you learn a lot about yourself in these kind of situations!! So here is the list of things:

Keisha-
Car- a sporty, smaller SUV
Animal- A gazelle, or flamingo, or swan
What section in Barnes and Noble we would be in- the big picture books of modern pictures of fashion, random photography, music etc ( i thought that was pretty cool!)
What genre of music i would be- country, or indie
If they had to describe me in one word- Syke! :) (they said this because at first I am not who i really am, like when you first meet me, i might seem real quite and shy and no fun, or even mean cause I am so shy, but then once you get to know me, im fun, and nice and such, so its like SYKE! lol)
and the last one was...if I would be an object what would I be(something that goes along with my one word)- one of those tubes that when you open in all the things pop out of it, like those practical joke cans...lol.

It was a really fun day!! It was a 5 hour drive, but we had fun and when we got here Kristin's mom had dinner ready for us. It was so good! Then we had our little fire for like 3 hours, had some amazing "God" conversations, and then went to bed..I have been so blessed with these friends. It almost made me want to cry. I just love it so much!! wow..just wow!

ROAD TRIP!!!!!

I am leaving today for St. Louis. It is Fall Break and me and Jenna, Aaron, Kristin, Nate, and Lisa are going to Kristin's house in St. Louis!! WHOOOO!!!! I am soooo excited!! Road trips are always fun but they are 50 times more fun with more people! I dunno if I will be able to post while I'm there, if i can I'll try to post pictures and tell of our fun adventures! It's going to be pretty much fun. So ya, I'm stoked. God is good, this year is amazing!!!

I just thought I'd tell you...

I love you..

I can't focus..i have a lot of homework to do, and my passion group is coming at 9, and i have no idea what we are going to do..sigh...blogging is the last thing i should be doing right now..bye

Late night coffee..and dislikes

Its almost one in the morning.. i had a iced caramel macchioto at 11..not a good idea. Now usually coffee makes me sleepy i don't know how this happens but its true. Of course on the night i get it at 11 it does the opposite. I am so awake right now and super hyper!!! I am listening to my roommate tell a story about tire swings, listening to music and thinking about things that i don't like doing..here they are

1. writing for the newspaper- im just not very good at it. I wish I was, but it's not what God blessed me with.
2. Having to wake up and go to a 9 o clock class
3. Saying goodbye
4. Realizing a friendship is going south
5. Not being able to have steak without paying 12.50
6. Buying shoes you love and then realizing they are so uncomfortable you will never wear them.
7. having to go to the caf to get foog
8. not being able to get all the music i could ever desire in one place
9. homework
10. crying
11. watching an entire movie just to find out it sucked
12. missing my friends
13. failing to work out
14. having to fix my hair and do my make up
15. wearing clothes that are uncomfortable no matter how cute they are


ok..the coffee is starting to wear off, and the sleeping pill is starting to kick in
these are my thoughts at the moment. now even though this is a whole list of things i don't like i am actually quite happy and content right now...lots of laughter in our room tonight..its so nice being happy so much..i think ill keep it!

So last night....

I finally got my tattoo!!!!!!!!! I LOVE it sooo much! And I know a lot of people are going to be upset or shocked by this, but it is not something i rushed into, or did spontaneously, i have been wanting this for like 3 years, and have done lots of praying and thinking about it..so all that to say IM SO EXCITED about it!! It was rather EXTREMELY painful, but I had rachel and Hannah by my side to distract me..thanks guys!! To me, it is an exclamation to everyone who I belong to. I am his forever, just like this tattoo is permanent, so is He.





I was excited...Rachel was scared for me


HERE WE GO!!!

It kinda hurt..A LOT!

Recovering..i look like a psych ward patient

FINISHED

JOY!

I'M FILLED WITH IT!

Caution: Do not compare

So this is going to be a serious yet happy post!

This weekend i went to Breakaway, it is a retreat my school takes every year. I went expecting to just have a good time with Jenna, Kristin, and Lisa. I did accomplish that,but i got so much more out of it. The first night the speaker spoke about image, and how we can take on the image of Christ and make that our focus or how we can compare ourselves to other people constantly. Comparing ourselves to others is either to tear us down or tear others down. Normally when you compare yourself with someone else you are either wishing you had something they have and you don't or are telling yourself you are glad you have something they don't. He told us that this is such a horrible image to have. When you do that, the focus is always on you, you are so busy worrying about what you do or don't have that you miss out on people, opportunities or letting God use you. This is something I have been struggling with SO much! I am constantly thinking "Wow i wish i had hair like hers" or "She has such a great personality, i wish i could be like her" etc...It has done nothing but bring me down. And so then in return when i am feeling down i try to find things to make me feel better about myself like.."Well at least I don't do that, or dress like her" and i know this is a horrible thing to do. But you can't tell me you have never done the same thing. It is just human nature.

Well i decided to no longer do that, to focus on taking on the image of Christ. Every time I catch myself doing this I stop, and try to think of an aspect of Christs character that i need to focus on working on today. So far it has worked. I'm not saying im all fixed and am never going to compare myself to people ever again, im going to have to work on it everyday, but im so excited and willing to do that. These past two days that i have been putting this into practice i have felt more free, at peace and happy than i have in a long time. I am not finding my happiness and worth in what others think of me or what i think of other people. If people do not accept me for who i truly am than I dont want to have them in my life anyway. There is no need to try to be what im not to make the friends i think i want. I am who i am and happy with that.

I am still going to need help in this though, so if you go to school with me or talk to me regularly and catch me comparing myself to someone please bring it to my attention and make me stop!! and if you are not around me if you could pray for me to have the strength to do this everyday that would be amazing!!!!

ok sorry for such the long post!

It's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball...

I am very very very sad that i am missing the Damien rice concert that is going on in a couple hours...very very sad

So many things, so little time

So lately I have been making a lot of lists of things i want to see, read, or go to!

T.V. Season Premiers I must see:
*Sept 19th:
America's Next Top Model @ 8
*Sept 20th:
Survivor: China @ 8
*Sept 24th:
Dancing With the Stars @ 8
The Bachelor @ 9:30
*Sept 25th:
Law and Order SVU @ 10
*Sept 27th:
The Office @ 9
Greys Anatomy @ 9
*Oct 25th:
Scrubs @ 9:30

Books I want to read:
Blue Like Jazz
Oath-Frank Perretti
Skin-Ted Dekkar
The Irresistable Revolution-Jim Wallis

Concerts That are coming to Tulsa I want to go to:
Damien Rice- Sept 16
Minus the Bear- Oct 23
David Crowder- Oct 26
Mute Math and Eisley- Nov 9


So these are my goals..they all make me excited

MAC fun

So i decided to have a little fun with my roommates mac..yes hannah when you read this, i did use your mac to take these pictures! I"M SORRY! i was going to ask you but you were no where to be found and you left your phone...but it was beckoning me, calling my name..i couldn't tell it no..=)

So here are just a few pics = D

I want my tattoo

REALLY BAD!!!

♥

♥

oh how i have missed you

Dear Pudding,
I had forgotten how wonderful you are and how much i love you,
i am sorry for this horrible thing that i have done
thank you for coming back to me
i have missed you...

gross

when i get in a mood, i eat..all the time..and really unhealthy things...than i feel even worse...things i ate today:

2 no bake cookies
fries
some candy
a spicy southwest burger from Sonic
a cherry limeade(drank it not ate it)
and yesterday i ate
a whole bag of popcorn
and some stuff i cant remember

now i dont feel good, all that food is going to show up....blah

Everybody dance now

probably one of the most amazing things i have ever seen

Rain, Tea, Can-Can Dancers....

I'm sitting in my room while the rain falls outside
Drinking chai tea
Watching Moulin Rouge
And thinking that i should do my homework

life is good

A good weekend

So overall this weekend was really good! The Dave Barnes concert was absolutely amazing!! I did end up missing Colbie, which sucked a lot!!!! But the rest of the concert was really great!!! Seeing sean was so fun! I even made two new friends! So even though it had some definite bumps along the way I am glad i went!

Good day gone bad

So this morning I thought today was going to be a really good day. Well it has decided to go down hill fast!!!!!!!!
Lunch sucked..good company, bad food. And then i stopped Adam to ask him about our plans to go to Dallas and he informed me that now he might not be going...which means i probably would not end up going. This whole weekend in Dallas has turned into more of a burden than something to look forward too. I just want it to be over with. Sean has not made any attempt to help me out in planning it, or putting any effort in it at all. I dunno why i thought things would be the same with all of us still.. It's not..and it makes me really sad. I miss that friendship, it was one of my favorites..now its just stressful. So now im just upset and worrying about that cause I really really really wanna see the concert but not the way things are going now. And I am the one who got roped into paying for the tickets so i also have to worry about who is going to pay me back. I hate this!!

I also have soooo much to do. All of it dumb. Im just not in the mood to write about a stupid soccer game or go be friendly to people. I know thats horrible but i just want to crawl into my bed and sleep till this whole thing goes away. It may not seem like a big deal but it really is to me. I am just sick of being let down by people. I feel like i am the only reliable, loyal one.

Can we just fast forward to monday please...so i can just be home!

From The Inside Out

by Hillsong United

album: United We Stand (2006)

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out