A man must stand in fear
of just those things
that truly have the power
to do us harm,
of nothing else,
for nothing else is fearsome.

-Dante's Inferno

The Final Countdown

5 weeks

I can't decide whether to dance, or cry

The fear is setting in

So is the excitement

It's a battle of the emotions

one should always be drunk.

that's the one thing that matters.

in order not to feel the terrible

burden of Time, which breaks

your shoulders and crushes you

to the ground, one should be drunk

without ceasing. but on what?

on wine, on poetry, or on virtue,

as suits you.

but get drunk...

baudelaire

Found this here. A wonderful blog I read daily. Her name is Meg.

My cruise even taught me some life lessons. I have learned to stop being so afraid of situations. I am fearful and self conscious so I miss out on opportunities and then MAJORLY regret it later. This happened on this trip and it really wasn't a big deal, but it was the last straw kind of thing. I'm so sick of not letting myself be truly me because I am afraid it won't be good enough or they won't like me. It's silly and it makes me angry. So right here, right now I am making myself a promise:

I promise to never again miss out on an opportunity
to have fun or strike up a conversation or to do anything I want to do
because I am afraid. I will be me, to the fullest. I am done wondering
"what if" and replaying how the situation should have gone
in my head.

Yup that's my promise. Little awkward, shy, no fun girl that lives in my head, you're not real. So please just go away. Thank you. I choose to no longer believe you are me.

I also fully intend to make up for my lost opportunity. (Not real sure if that's what my mom wants to hear).

Spring Break 2010...Incredible

For my last Spring Break ever me and 7 of my friends went on a cruise. It was the best week ever. I couldn't have asked for a better break or to spend it with better friends. I miss it already. There are SO many stories I don't know if I could tell them all here. It would be too long haha. So I will post a ridiculous amount of pictures to try to let you see how great it was. Enjoy!

With our servers for the week the last night :(

At the club with the girls. Crazy night. So fun

Playing the the Ocean at Playa Del Carmen

Haha ok so this night was one of the funnest. I was dragged on the dance floor by these two men. The one in back was on his honey moon, but don't worry, his wife was in on it ha. The one in the front is the guy I danced with the rest of the night. (yes, for those of you who know me and can't believe your eyes, I did go dancing, and I danced with a boy, and he was fine! ha) Needless to say I couldn't stop laughing during this Keisha sandwhich. Fun fun

This was in Cozumel

The gang on Formal Night

Me and Lis

Dinner the first night

Warning

found here

Live. Laugh. Love

Ther are 7 weeks until graduation. There is no way I can pour out all my thoughts and feelings about this right now, that will come at a later date, but it will come. Rights now, at this moment, I'm stressed. So I am going to get it out in this post, and leave it here. I have to learn how to let things go. It's ok for everything not to be perfect. No one is really going to care or remember how incredible or a not a student concert is or if I made an A on one test. In the long run, it doesn't matter.

Relationships matter
People matter
Memories matter
having fun matters
being in the moment matters

Today is BLUE's last student concert of the year and my last one as BLUE director. My last one ever actually. I HAVE to enjoy it. Every aspect and step of it. I have to

Soak it up
Love it
Have fun
Take pictures
Laugh
Love people

Today, that's my goal.

To live and love every minute of it.

shared silence.

shared silence.

they walked side by side, her arm slipped awkwardly through his, the quiet transporting them to separate worlds.

overhead streetlights pulsed quickly--continuously, illuminating each of the thousand unanswered questions.

and it was there, amidst the questions and the silence and the faint glow of uncertainty, that she first wondered whether to silently un-slip her arm--to stop moving--to stand still and watch as the slow world's current quietly carried him away.

but she continued on. in an effort to match the unnatural cadence--to find a silence they could share.

Found this on The Wild and Wily Ways of a Brunette Bombshell. Check her out. Wonderful blog

Sorry for the lack of blogging. Having a hard time sorting through all my thoughts/ feelings about things. They're all kinda jumbled up these days. Maybe after I get some things crossed off my "list" I'll be return to the blogging world. OR maybe this post will inspire me and blogs will start flowing like milk. (I dunno where the milk reference came from). Anyway, guess you'll just have to wait and see which one happens :)