Introverts

I am finding that the older I get, the more introverted I am. I read this article yesterday and I identified with just about every single one.

I wish/hope my friends understand that when I turn down a party, or leave early, or look like I am not having a good time because I am quiet or by myself for a few moments, that it has nothing to do with them, or the party. I am probably having a good time, or have had a good time, and I definitely appreciate the invite. It's just that I am probably totally exhausted by the people. Or I just don't have it in me to venture into a room full of people I may or may not know and small talk. It's scary and exhausting. At the same time, please don't think I want you to stop inviting me. Please invite me. I want to be a part of things..I just may not want to be a part of everything. 

I would love to go to lunch or coffee or dinner or a drink with you and maybe on or two others. I would talk and laugh and have a wonderful time, because you see, I can handle a small crowd in a manageable setting. So have some grace and understanding with this introvert when she doesn't show up or seems less than enthused after a few minutes at a party. She loves you. Then, offer her a cup of coffee and a little one on one. 

Taking Stock

Making : myself cozy on the couch, after my workout. The fire is going, the tree is lit and I'm enjoying some of my favorite "girl" shows.

Cooking : Not much since Thanksgiving. I have left overs for days. BUT, I think today was the last day I could choke them down. The cooking starts again tomorrow. 
Drinking : Water. How lame, yet healthy. Trying to stay hydrated this winter. 
Reading : Cold Tangerines by Shauna Niequist  and I am loving it! I forgot it was on my Kindle and i just started reading it again. So inspiring to live your life with joy and in every moment. I am also still reading The Meaning of Marriage by Tim Keller. Of course, this is still amazing and also still kicking my butt. I have got myself a lot of things to learn and work on in this marriage thing. 
Wanting : to find everyone the perfect gifts for Christmas! Also, to find a great place to volunteer this holiday season. 
Looking: forward to doing all sorts of holday activities with Steve. Making Christmas cookies, driving to look at lights, watching Christmas movies etc.
Playing: Christmas music. all the time. 
Wasting: leftovers. I just can't eat one more bite of turkey.
Sewing: I should probably just remove this category, because
Wishing: for it to snow. 
Enjoying: All the holiday things. 
Waiting: for Steve to call me after his lessons are done. 
Liking: the puppy cuddles I am getting right now. 
Wondering: where we will be living this time next year. What home will I be decorating for Christmas with my new husband? 
Loving: the way Steve asks me to marry him again and again in the middle of everyday moments. 
Hoping: that I convey everyday how thankful I am for this life I have been so graciously given.
Marveling: at how amazingly gracious and giving my parents are.
Needing: to check a few things off my wedding to-do list 
Smelling: my new pecan pie candle.
Wearing: workout pants, a long sleeve shirt and bare feet. It's a cozy night. 
Following: my to-do list. It's never ending and it's almost ALL wedding. 
Noticing: how happy a lit Christmas Tree and fireplace can make a person. 
Knowing: that this year is going to be over before I know it. I only hope I make the most of what's left of it. 
Thinking: about how I only have 5 months left of being a Witt, and being totally weirded out by that.
Bookmarking: all the gold glitter DIY decorations for our wedding. 
Opening: Instagram. I might have a problem. 
Giggling: what? What is the world am I supposed to put here?
Feeling: sleepy.