Life Lately (Photo Heavy)

-Walks in the park
- My birthday present from Steve (a hidden alarm under my bed that played him singing a happy birthday song he wrote)
- My birthday coffee mug
- Our small group Christmas Party

Love is hard. This is what I'm learning. It's wonderful and fun and exciting but it changes everything. And yes that may sound like common sense, but there is a difference in "knowing" something and being right in the middle of it. This last week was my first lesson. The first time juggling friends and boy became a problem. The first time I messed up and had to apologize. The first time I didn't walk away from him with a smile on my face. The first time he called to fix things. The first of many I'm sure. Communication is going to be the hardest lesson for me to learn. But learning I am. It's a good thing he's so wonderful and patient.

I've been gone for a little while. So let's catch up. Life has been so good. This past week there has been multiple Christmas parties with some of my favorite friends in the world, lessons learned, and a Dave Barnes Christmas concert. And this coming week holds fun things as well.

Crazy Stupid love

So I might be a little late to the party, but I just watched this last night. And I must tell you, I LOVED it. Forget the fact that it has Ryan Gosling in it (ok, don't forget it, cause I mean c'mon, look at him). This movie is wonderful. It's funny, heart-warming, and real. Steve Carell is just as funny as ever and all I want is for Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone is be in love in real life because they are the most adorable thing on the planet.
But seriously, if you haven't seen it, get up right now, go to Redbox and watch it. And then buy it, and watch it everyday for the rest of your life (too much?)

Crazy Beautiful Life

Man it has been a crazy week. Monday night I ended up being at the ER until around 3 with Steve. He got food poisoning from some chicken he cooked that night. Guys, it was the most horrible thing ever. He threw up about 30 times in like 2 hours ( gross I know). I've never seen any that sick. I surprised myself and handled it fairly well. I always thought I wouldn't be able to handle being around someone who was throwing up. But when it came down to it, it didn't bother me at all. So, go me? Anyway, that's a gross topic, so moving on. He ended up getting an IV so he could get hydrated and some meds to make him stop throwing up and let him sleep. It was a long night. He's still in recovery mode, mostly just tired all of the time. So, send some prayers his way. He goes on the road this weekend to play a couple shows and needs all the energy he can get.

The rest of the week has been doing all I can to take care of him and getting ready for Christmas parties galore. Tonight our small group is putting on a Christmas party/fund raiser for an organization in Africa called Muzungu Mama Ministries (http://www.lightinguganda.com/).It's going to be pretty fancy and today I went and bought myself a new little black dress for the occasion. I'm a little sad Steve will be out of town for the party, but I've been going to parties alone for 23 years I suppose I can go to one more. :)

Life is good. I'm a happy happy girl.

The Fight

I promise to fight.

I promise to fight the doubts, the questions, 

the gripping knot in my stomach

the Fear.

I promise to fight the self doubt, 

the sinking feeling every morning that this might be the day it ends.

I know its unwarranted, that I have no reason to feel this way

but sometimes it overwhelms me 

But I promise you this. 

I will fight it.

With all that I am 

Baby I'll fight, if you will.